Bedlam Solo (acoustic album)

by Louis Barabbas

/
  • Compact Disc (CD) + Digital Album

    Thirteen track solo acoustic album in card sleeve, with cover photography by Karen McBride.

    Includes unlimited streaming of Bedlam Solo (acoustic album) via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
    ships out within 3 days

      £5 GBP or more 

     

  • Streaming + Download

    Includes high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more. Paying supporters also get unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app.

      name your price

     

1.
2.
3.
4.
02:06
5.
6.
7.
8.
02:58
9.
10.
11.
03:01
12.
13.

about

Solo acoustic versions of Bedlam Six songs (from the albums "Found Drowned", "Get Religion", "Memoir Noir" and "Youth")

credits

released October 1, 2015

All songs written by Louis Barabbas
Vocals and Guitar by Louis Barabbas
Engineered, Mixed and Mastered by Dan Watkins at WR Audio (www.wraudio.co.uk)
Photography by Karen McBride (www.karenmcbride.com)

tags

license

all rights reserved

about

Louis Barabbas Manchester, UK

Louis Barabbas is a writer, performer and label director, best known for caustic love songs and energetic stage shows. He is also a member of Un-Convention, occupies a seat on the Musician’s Union Live Performance Committee, is one of the moderators at Tom Robinson’s Fresh On The Net resource, fronts The Bedlam Six and presents a weekly show on Fab Radio International.
www.louisbarabbas.com
... more

contact / help

Contact Louis Barabbas

Streaming and
Download help

Track Name: Love At A Price
I may not be the best but I'm the best you'll get.
I don't care what Jesus said, if I die I'm staying dead.
As the first lovers sank down into the mud:
That's when the blueprints of utopia were drawn out in blood.

Hi-Dee-Hi-Ho
You promised a lot but no,
The road to bliss is best walked alone.
I stole your heart but I threw it away
Because Hey,
You said crime don't pay.

Well I may be your top shelf,
I may be your bottom drawer,
But you've been holding my hand
And now you're telling folk it's yours.
When you got on your knees and begged me to stay
I heard the footsteps of fidelity walking away.

Hi-Dee-Ho-Hi
It's alright for you but I
Am through with love and I'm through with love's lies.
I stole your heart then I threw it away
Because Hey,
You said crime don't pay.

So long, get a move on
Before all our wrongs turn all too right.
I could have killed for you darling
But I'd never risk my life
For love at that price.

You held the hem of my heart as you worked your way in,
I felt the blame in your tears like glass under my skin.
Grimy with the grease from your face and your fingers,
There was love between us once but you know it never lingered.

Hi-Dee-Hi
Who would want me to want to too?
There's an answer but it sure ain't "I do."
I stole your heart then I threw it away
Because Hey,
You said crime don't pay.

So long, get a move on
Before all our wrongs turn all too right.
I could have killed for you darling
But I'd never risk my life
For love at that price.
Track Name: Woe Betide You
You and I have been here before
But this time I came prepared
You know our love is little more
Than a loneliness that we shared

I've been living in the shadow of a monument
To the kind of man you want me to be
Well you can cry all you like over my indifference
But you sewed the seeds of my ennui

And I am warning you girl
Just like you once warned me

Woe betide you
If you want to hurt me again

You tell me I'm hurting your feelings now
Well I was aiming at your thoughts
Certainly there's something appealing about
The kind of happiness we sought

But what's the use in filling pages if you can't rip them out
I refuse to play the villain in my own life
Yes those pretty little cynicisms we can do without
But I won't let you grind me down and I won't go without a fight

I am warning you girl
Just like you once warned me

Woe betide you
If you want to hurt me again

You know I wasn't hewn from heroic timber
But I'm growing tired of our little tableau
There's a light beyond this gloom, though it's no more than a glimmer
It's enough to guide my way as I walk out on you

Because I am warning you girl
Just like you once warned me

Woe betide you
Track Name: All That's In Between
The book of my life may be second hand
But you may still find a few petals
Pressed between its pages.
I'll give you all the ellipses and ampersands
If you just save your etceteras for me.

I knew you were crying in the next room
But I feigned a deafness
To the patter of those tears.
I tried to find inspiration in a vacuum
But I lacked the provision of years.

Our lives were elsewhere and we knew it,
So with a sundial for a compass
We turned away from the light.
But between opening that door
And walking through it
The roads all receded from sight.

And I know
I'm not all that you wanted
But I'll be all that you need
For the day, the night
And everything in between.

I will never feel easy in this skin
So I will only accept happiness
When there is nothing left to long for.
I've no time for the times we are living in
They are just a tourniquet
For glory days gone before.

I hear regrets are always the last to leave
As we move further away
From the memories that define us.
You can take hope
And you can take heaven,
But not simultaneously.
Our footprints don't remain long behind us.

I'm not all that you wanted
But I'll be all that you need
For the day, the night
And everything in between.

You said you'd rather see the devil in its true form
Than embodied in the deeds of men and boys.
Don't wish these worries dead,
Prefer them unborn;
This isn't silence,
We're just waiting for noise.

I'm not all that you wanted
But I'll be all that you need
For the day, the night
And everything in between.

Yes the book of my life is second hand
But what Fate annotates can never be erased.
How long will I stay?
As long as I can stand.
Always, always, always.

I'm not all that you wanted
But I'll be all that you need
For the day, the night
And everything in between.
Track Name: Tonight
You had me packed like an artefact in the cotton of your ambition
But there was something in my condition
That made me long for a little more.
You had me squeezed for at least the last two years of marriage
But some mistaken adage made you blind to what was in store.

I'll be waiting up when you get home tonight.

I made a cat-flap for my jealousy so it could roam where it wanted.
It had a sorry tail that it flaunted
But every night it would come home
(Unlike you).
But I made do
With those slivers of deceit,
Those tributes left at my feet
For which your conscience will atone.

I'll be waiting up when you get home
Tonight.

Now I'm fraught and overwrought
Like a bird among the rafters,
But it's not laughter that I'm after,
Just a grim and knowing sneer.
As for you:
When I'm through
You'll be sore down to your ligaments.
I've known no love without disfigurement,
I've known no fondness without fear.

I'll be waiting up when you get home tonight.

I'll be waiting for you
I'll be waiting for you
I'll be waiting for you

Tonight.
Track Name: Living In The Aftermath
The light has gone out in your window.
We are perched on the brink of a dawn.
But I am outside in the shadows
And I am alone.

I am no stranger to this door,
It was built with the sweat from my brow.
I lingered awhile on its threshold
Before turning round.

For what I lack won't be found in the looking,
What I want is to be there with you
But some houses are better as ruins,
Some people too.

So darling
Turn my picture to the wall
And do what you must do,
You say there's shame
In the lies we tell
But there is more shame in the truths.

You have scorned all my cloistered virtues
And the vices they may have produced,
You know youth isn't the time for seduction
It's a time to be seduced

But when the watering holes have all run dry
Then I shall drink from the mirage
And when you meet me there I will not ask why,
I will laugh

Turn my picture to the wall
And do what you must do,
You say there's shame
In the lies we tell
But there is more shame in the truths.
Track Name: I Want To Know More
We both know love always comes with conditions
Collusions and collisions
Unplanned revisions
And small print
Darling we're no different
It's you and me or you and someone else

Between the womb and the tomb
There's not a lot of room
To be the people we want to be
And now I'm all rage
I've forgotten how to act my age
Everything is slipping away from me

Baby I am the man you're holding on to right now
But tell me who is the man you're holding on for?
I want to know more.

Joking apart
Don't you dare enjoy the start
We need to save our smiles for the happy ending
I've put myself through hell
But these thoughts won't think themselves
And I'm wondering if you're just pretending

Now my inner child is watching
So I've put him up for adoption
Because I suspect he's up to something really bad
And you still give me chills
You've got me hooked through the gills
But love never stopped anyone feeling sad

Baby I am the man you're holding on to right now
But tell me who is the man you're holding on for?
I want to know more.

It's just the echo of a memory
Of a shadow of a regret
And the regrets are all for things
I haven't even done yet
I'm just a privileged boy
Battling for his right to a little misery
Wishing you were kissing me
And wishing it meant more

I am the man you're holding on to right now
But who is the man you're holding on for?
I want to know more.
Track Name: The Debtor's Wife
It began with a gift
But died with a debt
And if redemption's on the cards
Well it hasn't happened yet.
He said if you need anything from me
All you got to do is ask,
But he wore that sincerity
Like a halloween mask.

I owe, I owe
I owe so many folk
I've got nowhere to go.
I owe, I owe
Won't nobody help me get out of this hole?

His words were sweet as honey
But that honey attracted flies.
I knew he never meant to really love me
He just wanted to synchronise.
I said beware the things you sow
Because one day you've got to reap them.
He said what's the use in making promises darling?
You've only got to keep them.

I owe, I owe
I owe so many folk
I've got nowhere to go.
I owe, I owe
Won't nobody help me get out of this hole?

Each morning he'd fall through my door,
All frail foul and thin,
Beauty may be all around us but there's certainly nothing good within him.
I know a gambler's got no ties,
Just a suitcase and a trunk,
But I soon came to realise that there were more days behind us than in front.

I owe, I owe
I owe so many folk
I've got nowhere to go.
I owe, I owe
Won't nobody help me get out of this hole?

Now the stitching has frayed and all the cupboard's are bare,
He's got his head in his hands but he's lost the luxury of despair.
It's true I ain't possessive and it's true I don't need wealth,
But if he wants to be a martyr now
I'll hammer the nails myself

I owe, I owe
I owe so many folk
I've got nowhere to go.
I owe, I owe
Won't nobody help me get out of this hole?
Track Name: Mother
I crumpled up the creeds of Man
And ran out into the rain
Where I mourned for my lost virtue
But mourned more for what remained.
I'd give my grief to God
But I'm just too proud to pray.
Mother, why did you raise me this way?

I'm the busted bulb in your lighthouse
I'm your guilt dashed on the cliff.
I read about perpetuity:
I hope it's just a myth.
Some people talk of progress
But all I see is decay.
Mother, why did you raise me this way?

I pin my hopes on the future
Like martyrs to a tree
But they haven't yet built the religion that can hold me.
I hear tomorrow will be better,
I heard the same thing yesterday.
Mother, why did you raise me this way?

OMITTED VERSE (present in "Youth" version, for some reason forgotten in this recording...)
Each night I go to sleep
The way a Christian goes to lions.
God can take my body,
I'm leaving my soul to science.
I'm sure He had a plan in Man
But something's gone agley.
Mother, why did you raise me this way?

There's a stranger in this mirror,
Or is it just stained glass?
I've changed my face so many times
But I wish I could change the past.
There are more epithets than cigarettes
Stubbed out in my ashtray.
Mother, why did you raise me this way?

I'm a gentleman, a charlatan,
A pledge from a poison pen.
I lately made a big mistake:
Told the truth and sounded fake.
My friends are all long gone,
There's none left to betray.
Mother, why did you raise me this way?

I keep my guardian angel close
But always gagged and bound.
Can someone please let me know
The way off this misery-go-round?
I long to see the spin on me
In St Peter's Dossier.
Mother, why did you raise me this way?

I'm told there'll be no jobs until somebody dies
But you know a salary is is just another term
For "consolation prize"
So I'm plodding through Perdition
Like some latter day Dante.
Mother, why did you raise me this way?

Now I've told you all my thoughts
But I still haven't seen that penny,
You ask if there were bad times:
Yeah... MANY
I long to say I love you
But it's such a damned cliche.
Mother, why did you raise me this way?
Track Name: You Can't Run From My Love
You ought to know by now
You're not welcome round here
But you still prowl round
And all day long
I hear your voice down my telephone.
But I've made my choice to go on alone.

You can't run from my love
Run from my love
You can't run from my love
I love you too much and you're mine

The embers of what I was,
Once drenched in devotion's creed,
Glow again because
Now I know I need
Only one shadow,
I can provide my own echo
Without you here
Telling me

You can't run from my love
Run from my love
You can't run from my love
I love you too much and you're mine

I remember the forgetting
But not what was forgotten
That day I gave you a piece of my heart
You took the lot
and your tragicomic histrionics
Suggest if love's a plague
Then this one's bubonic

Something precious inside me
Fell with a mighty sigh
Love reared its vengeful head and said
You can't run from me.
Track Name: Thick Carpets, Old Lifts
I fold down the corners on the pages of my life
And skip over the chapters that I wasted on my wife.
I know I'm not too handsome,
I know I'm not too tall
But sit down darlin'
And tell me it all.

I like my hotels with thick carpets and old lifts,
I like to eat my grapes sour with pips.
I know I'm not too rich,
I know I'm going bald
But sit down darlin'
And tell me it all.

I was just a girl that kept her feelings well hid
And my conscience stayed quiet about the things that I did,
I locked up my heart but gave a man the key,
He wasn't much to many but he meant a lot to me.

We wandered to and we wandered fro,
Drank a lot of liquor a did a lot of blow.
I was the fruit and he was the rind,
I was the clock and he was the time.

You know what they say about love
And you know what's always being sung
But relationships are more like chicken pox:
You've got to get immune when you're young.
Track Name: The Light
Midnight.
Have you got a light?
There there, it's alright.
That old flame found me again
And in her I swear
I saw Heaven silhouetted by the light of Hellfire.
There was nothing I regretted more than that desire,
Walking the high wire,
Trading the net for the noose.
Hey darling why are you always looking down?
If you're dreaming of the Devil
He will surely come around,
Trip your treasons up
Then tease them out.
These treacheries are easier the truths.

Sirens always sing the same sad songs,
Don't you worry though,
We'll only hear them once.
Leaving love to chance
Was the worst way we could ever go.

Slow...
Fade that moon's glow.
Stay close,
Stay close.
Let me be the card up your sleeve:
I don't want to play,
I just want to be played.

Because I've seen Heaven silhouetted by the light of Hellfire,
There's been nothing I've regretted more than that desire,
Love's idle empire,
Cheering all the cherubs on to war.
Hey darling why you looking so mean?
You know I haven't sought a single soul
Since I was seventeen,
Just a string of magazines
That suckled all the sickly and the sore.

Sirens always sing the same sad songs,
Don't you worry though,
We'll only hear them once.
Leaving love to chance
Was the worst way we could ever go.

Heaven silhouetted by the light of Hellfire
There was nothing we regretted more than that desire,
Love's Final Empire,
Chasing all the cherubs on to war...

Torn.
Stay until dawn.
Sanctus,
Sanctus.
You'll be
A strange memory
But tonight
Won't you give me a light?
Track Name: Turn Out The Light
Can you care too much?
You say it depends.
If I poured all the world's love into your cup
Would you ever say 'when'?
All this disarray:
Well it's okay.
Lay these things down on me

The dawn once shone on our happiness.
You rose early each morning to tie the frail fastenings of fondness
While I lay and slept.
You and I
We'll get by
So lay these things down on me

You warmed me
But seldom like the sun.
It came closer to a cold kiss on a warm night
In a building that's burning down.
Me and you:
We aint got a clue
So lay these things down on me

Take a long hard look at me now
Take a long hard look at me now
Take a long hard look at me now
And I'll be the last thing you see
Before I turn out the light.
Track Name: The Tell-Tale Hound
Squatting on the map like a big black stain
Was a dirty old town where it always rained,
Where there ain't no cars and there ain't no trains,
It's enough to drive a man insane.
But the one little thing that kept me there
Was a pretty young woman with auburn hair,
Locked in a loft at the top of some stairs
I dreamt some day I'd take her away from there.
She was born with more than original sin
And raised in shame at a Holiday Inn
I stood at her window shouting let me in,
She opened up the shutter with a bottle of gin
And said "Boy Boy lower your voice
My dog can't sleep with all this noise
You see this beast sitting at my feet?
My daddy left him to keep a watch on me."

So home I ran to hatch a plan
I'd lull that dog to sleep if I can
And take that girl by her lilly white hands
And show her the kind of a man I am.
Every day I'd play a new lullaby,
I'd sing all evening and I'd sing all night
But nothing would close that damned dog's eyes,
He'd laugh as my love intensified.

"Boy you've got to do better than that,
That dog's treating you like a flesh doormat.
Quit playing around like a big pussy cat,
I won't wait forever and that's a fact."
So I scaled the wall and I swam the moat,
I found the dog and I slit his throat,
I threw him in the water to see if he'd float
But he sank right down with a bubble and a croak.
I tapped on her window and she let me in,
"It's about time I started living in sin"
I looked at her face and I saw her grin,
She said "Boy you don't know the trouble you're in.

You freed me from that hideous hound
But you'll find it's harder to put him down."
I looked at the floor and saw a puddle by the door
I smelt wet dog and I felt his paw... on my shoulder.

So I ran and ran
Running as fast as I can,
I've been running as long as my memory spans,
Chased all across this desolate land,
That dog ain't no best friend to this man.
Ever since he turned his back on death
I've known know peace and I've known no rest,
At night he sniggers at an unknown jest.
My pulse is set to the rhythm of his breath.

Many years have passed and ever since
That dog has sat where I once kept my conscience,
All I wanted was to get a little bit of respite
So I came to the day where I took my own life;
I skipped from a cliff and down I fell
Passed purgatory and went straight to hell,
The devil was there with a long leather lead,
You can guess who he had waiting for me.